PAIN

Pain is debilitating, encompassing, prominent, foremost, enveloping, exhausting, distracting. How can something so small, a tiny little nerve, take over your entire existence. After an ER visit, an orthopedic visit, an MRI, how can they still not know what to do or where to look. Has anyone ever thought about an x-ray?? Maybe there is a bone spur, maybe having nothing to do with a pinched sciatic nerve. But the medical facilitators, want to do the expensive MRI, which I did last night. I cried like a girl, in one of the positions and only had to hold it for 3 minutes. It took everything I had not to squeeze the little "help call" button.
I came home and collapsed on the couch. Waking at midnight, limping to the bed, thinking, I left my cell phone in the living room and if I should have to call for help, I'd never make it in there. So after propping with pillows (and my dogs and cat) I finally cried myself back to a restless stage of sleep. I'm eating pain medication and muscle relaxers like candy and they are noneffective.
Then I stop and think; my mom took on so much more pain and procedures than I have and she was a trooper, if she had pain, she pretty much kept it inside, never voicing like me. I feel like a whiner. ..
Anyway, I shall overcome this and be running around like a crazed soccer mom, hopefully before too much longer.